I lift up my eyes to the hills – from where will my help come?
Psalm 121:1
This is my first blog post since last Saturday. That’s unusual for me, but the explanation is pretty simple: I have been sick in bed until today. My rapid COVID-19 test came back negative , but I have had all the symptoms, so I have been sleeping in the basement and wearing my mask around my family. And I have felt terrible. Today is the first day I have had any interest in writing anything, which brings me to this little devotion.
A while ago I wrote a devotion on Dom Chapman’s famous suggestion to “Pray as you can, not as you can’t.” Today, I would add, “Pray while you can, before you can’t.”
I am typically quite faithful to my prayers. I pray the Psalms daily, pray for my family and my congregation, pray for my community and world, and pray for those who have asked for my prayers. But to be honest, I have not been praying very much the last few days. I barely got out of bed. I didn’t do any reading, even my daily Bible reading. And when I did pray, it was pretty brief and a bit selfish.
There are times when life’s challenges deepen our prayer life, without a doubt. We have all experienced those times when our desperate need becomes an appeal to God. We “lift up our eyes” to the hills, looking for God’s help. And God loves to answer those prayers! But there are other times when we are so exhausted, so sick, so filled with pain, that prayer becomes more effort than we can summon. We might come up with a feeble, “God, help me” but that’s about it. (Of course this, too, is a prayer which God also loves to answer!)
As I sat in the Urgent Care last Saturday, I was at that point. I was dealing with an agonizing headache, and the light and the noise around me seemed to be beating my head like a hammer. I wondered how much longer until I could endure it, and when would I be called back (it was now long past my scheduled appointment). I was in agony, but I was not alone in that. There were sick people all around me. I closed my eyes, and without thinking, prayer bubbled up. “God, help me ” But then, “God, help those screaming children, and their anxious parents.” And “God, watch over this overworked medical care staff.” And so on. It didn’t require any effort, really. I just fell back on what I have done daily for many years.
I share this not to boast of my ability to pray when sick, because most of the rest of the time, I laid in bed and relied on the prayers of those around me. I share this experience simply to point out that if we pray while we can, our prayer-life can endure those times when prayer seems impossible. Prayer bubbles up as soon as it finds an opening. It floats back to the surface, no matter how severe the storm.
So, pray while you can. Dig your roots deep into the soil of God’s grace. And then rely on those deep prayer roots when the drought comes. But also, don’t be afraid to ask for prayer during those times when, for whatever reason, it is too difficult to pray. Sometimes, after all, we are the person too sick to find Jesus ourselves, but need to be carried to him by our friends.
Pray as you can, pray while you can, and pray without ever giving up, for our God is faithful, and eager to hear our every prayer.
Thank you for this encouragement. Praying for your full recovery.
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“Prayer bubbles up as soon as it finds an opening. It floats back to the surface, no matter how severe the storm.” That really hit me with hope and life. Thank you for bringing this light out of what could have been just a dark experience. Amen!
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Thank you for your encouragement!
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It reminds me of Emily Dickinson’s poem, “Hope is the thing with feathers”
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One of my favorites!
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Rest in the arms of the one who measures your every breath in love. My prayers are with you.
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Thank you so much, Linda. I am truly grateful.
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So relieved to hear you feel better and writing again! Always look forward to your encouraging blog posts!
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That means a lot. Thank you!
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When we can’t pray we are lifted up by the prayers of others. That is what Christian community is all about.
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Amen, and I am grateful for my family, my congregation, and my blogging community who have faithfully prayed for me when I found it difficult to pray for myself.
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Hello Pastor,
I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been so sick. Even though I don’t know you personally, I imagined what it must have been like for you sleeping in the basement… sick… 🙁
Praying that you are on the road to full recovery.
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Thank you. This is probably as sick as I have been in my adult life, but today I feel quite a bit better. I am hoping to move out of the basement soon!
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Dear James, thank you for sharing this wonderful post. I am sorry that you were so sick, but grateful for the example you shared with your flock and your friends in this post. you can ask us to pray for you as you have prayed for us. Four years ago I had a knee replacement, and it took me almost two months to feel like myself. I too struggled with prayer and a really good friend and colleague said simply, “Then you have to let us pray for you! It struck me as such a gift of love. Again though, thankful for those words and the bubbling up of prayer. I hope your symptoms have gone away or are rapidly decreasing. May God, who created you and called you, be present with you in the midst of your recovery and guide you to not do more than you can. Unfortunately, ordination does not bring with it a sturdy pair of tights and a cape! Blessings in Christ, Michele
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Beautiful words, Michele, and a wonderful reminder to me, and to all of us in the “praying profession,” to ask for prayers when we need them, which is often!
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Thank you so much for your prayers, everyone. I am so grateful to part of such a loving and faithful community. Blessings to each and every one of you.
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Very wise words
I shall keep you in my prayers
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Thank you
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Well said! May your strength soon be renewed fully!
Carole
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This was encouraging. Sometimes- like the current times- I often feel guilty because my prayer life is not very strong.
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Yes, I know what you mean! At those times, I try to offer myself the same grace and mercy that I believe God is offering to me, and to us all. Surely our loving God does not want us to feel guilty about our prayer life! Think of our every prayer, no matter how few or rarely offered, as being accepted in the same warm embrace that once greeted the prodigal. Blessings, James
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